accessible dinner theatre in the street

“… For the times they are a-changin'.” Bob Dylan

It’s been 49 years since Bob Dylan penned that verse. Yet Monday night while we pushed and rolled through the staging of Carlisle’s Halloween parade I personally was startled at the number of wheeled people participating.

Carlisle Halloween Parade 2012

We discovered two floats sponsored by care facilities escorted by several rolling residents. … plus a float promoting a local autism school including parents and students for grades K – 12. ... and our personal favorite kids roasting marshmallows on a trailer. 

When able bodied people plan or organize anything, people with disabilities physical or mental can become unintentionally marginalized and/or largely invisible…. It is a rare community of people who can be genuinely inclusive.

While the visual impact was revolutionary for our years of parading … when you factor in a dependent population due to increasing chronic illness and age plus the reality of 1 in 88 kids with autism growing in leaps and bounds from childhood to young adulthood … if anything this parade was also a peek into the future.

Of course both in Carlisle above and pictured below in Mechanicsburg  there was still an overwhelming representation of fairy tale creatures, zombies, marching bands, cheerleaders, and the limitless creativity of Halloween.

Mechanicsburg Halloween Parade 2012

Small town America, at least here in South Central Pennsylvania, turns into the land of Halloween Parades in October. Just within a 20 minute drive of Patti’s care facility are seven such parades.

Patti’s Multiple Sclerosis visual impairment (legally blind) prevents her from seeing the distance from the curb to the center of the street so last year we began arriving about an hour before hand and push and roll through the staging area as floats are assembled, groups organized, and last minute costume adjustments made. Patti can see up close and enjoy interacting with participants

MS fatigue and her preferred bedtime of 7 PM becomes less of a problem as we are heading her to bed about the time most parades are kicking off.

Five more to go! As we always combine an outing with carry out finger food (which we have been praciticing with for months), it’s kind of like dinner theatre in the street. J

by Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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Multiple Sclerosis caregiver Social Media

Social media is a curious phrase. Before smart phones strangers might acknowledge us seeing us out and about; though most people pretend others with disabilities are invisible. Now with most people walking around in a trance hypnotized by their smart phones, iPads, kindles, or whatever more people actually walk into Patti in her wheel chair than ever before. Sooo … while they are sprawled across Patti’s lap or nursing their bruised shins are they engaging in ‘social media’?

Trends and technology aside there is one thing about Multiple Sclerosis caregiving that is as old as time, the feeling of isolation and loneliness.

I still remember the moment when I first discovered there was some like me out there 20+ years ago in a hidden mysterious world behind a plastic monitor on a AST personal computer with 2 MB RAM on something called a Prodigy Network ‘bulletin board’, pre-AOL and the dawn of internet service provider days.

Now over two decades later cyber enthusiasts tell me that sharing our story is “part of the social media of patient advocacy”. ‘Caregivingly Yours’ has even been ‘pinned’ on Pinterest, whatever that means.

Google analytics reports that Caregivingly Yours was viewed in just the past 12 months in 115 nations and read in 94 languages.

Caregivingly Yours, MS Caregiver
views October 2011 - October 2012

Whatever ‘youngens’ want to label it today, one thing has never changed it remains one person sitting down sharing our story with this mysterious world behind the plastic monitor about caregiving for severe MS so that somewhere, somehow when someone else begins their journey with MS progression they can discover that they are not alone.

As the writer of our story, yes the number of nations and languages is humbling. However it is frustrating that the smart phone generation seems to not get that all the ‘apps’ on the planet cannot change one single Depend. MS caregiving has taken, takes and will always take 'two hands'.

IMHO, better than improving ‘social media and medicine’ would be to energize 'social media and cures' and have less challenges to talk about … now that would be a wonderful world. 

I hear babies cry...... I watch them grow

They'll learn much more.....than I'll never know

And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world

“What A Wonderful World” by Bob Thiele & George David Weiss

Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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Annette’s caregiver pulls back the curtain

Annette Funicello’s spouse caregiver pulls back the curtain on not only the toll of chronic progressive multiple sclerosis on their lives but her recent CCSVI (chronic cerebrospinal venous insufficiency) treatment.

Annette Funicello: Her life with multiple sclerosis

Annette Funicello and Glen Holt

 “Now in a world exclusive Annette Funicello is back in the public eye. Glen Holt, her husband, invited W5 (Canadian news magazine television series) into their home to show the devastating effects of chronic progressive multiple sclerosis and to talk about his 25-year quest to find a treatment to help his wife…

… Today Annette receives around-the-clock care. She is fed through a tube and must be carried from her bed to her wheelchair.”

Back in 1992 when Annette Funicello first went public with her diagnosis of Mutliple Sclerosis it was a pivotal moment. Patti while technically diagnosed 7 years earlier had suffered her first major exacerbation 3 years earlier in 1989. 

Diagnosed with 'chronic progressive' MS, they just faded away, as do too many. Caregivingly Yours was launched several years ago so one life would not disappear drowned out by the Big Pharma marching band of treatments for milder MS. 

My hat is off to them both for inviting the world in to see that MS needs to be cured not treated.

Patrick Leer

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Multiple Sclerosis is exhausting

Unquestionably MS caregiving is both physically and emotionally demanding and exhausting … but “living with MS” itself now that is the ‘mother of all’ exhausting, like having a tank looming over you just waiting to run you over.

A fellow MS caregiver blogger whose spouse has also progressed to the care facility era of Multiple Sclerosis recently shared a touching entry, Too Tired for Lunch.

“We were supposed to be going out for lunch today … But when I arrived he was still in bed and sound asleep … he woke up but still groggy, and said he didn’t want to go anywhere…”

Reading Barb’s entry I was reminded of how many times I arrive to find Patti in one variation or another of “I just want to sleep”.

When this happens in late afternoon (our usual outing time) I just hang out while she sleeps, use the opportunity to track down physical therapists etc, or catch a little tube with Patti, and help out by feeding her dinner in bed, etc.

None of which I confess tends to make it into many entries to this journal. I am guilty of wanting to share our successful adventures more than when MS wins. In reality a whole lot of both 'living with MS' and MS caregiving is about being “too tired”.

Even when out and about, every outing has its breaking point when that tank of MS fatigue rolls right over Patti.

Monday I had Patti home for another caring and the culinary arts experiment using haddock tenders and shoestring french fries for finger food friendly fish and chips. While the culinary experiment went quite well I was also in these cooler Fall temps trying to stretch the outing as a kind of training exercise for upcoming October Halloween parades.

Trying to guesstimate when that MS fatigue breaking point will happen and getting Patti ready for bed just before it hits is the never ending ‘art of MS caregiving’.

Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

Caregivingly Yours, MS Caregiver @ http://caregivinglyyours.blogspot.com/

My Lung Cancer Odyssey @ http://lung-cancer-survivor.blogspot.com/

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push and roll plus time travel

Fall push and roll outings are both freedom for Patti after the hell’s kitchen of summer unfriendly Multiple Sclerosis temperatures and great caregiver exercise for me.

Certainly temperature and distance are always constants but when you can add time travel to the push and roll – well, it’s just a jump to the left and then a step to the right. Put your hands on your hips and … I’m digressing ... back to topic.

We pushed and rolled along the Army Heritage Trail back to the 1940’s and WWII at the U.S. Army Heritage and Education Center’s 2012 Fall WWII living history event Friday afternoon.

Their 1 mile trail is always interesting because of tanks, forts and such to see. It’s also our favorite place to train for the MS Walk, "Army Strong" signs everywhere and such. However when they add the reenactors for living history weekends - it’s the best! 

Hanging out with the Americans

Hanging out with the Americans we got to listen to “In the Mood” literally ‘cranking out’ on an old record player you had to crank up (note the handle) before putting on that Glen Miller 78 rpm record. Notice the Lucky Strike ‘red’ cigarettes on the cot. We learned that staging-area camps during WWII were named after various brands of American cigarettes, e.g. Camp Lucky Strike. All the hustle and bustle is a reenactment of induction & basic training camp.

German Afrika Korps

The German Afrika Korps tent was more about weapons and motors, including an awesome BMW motorcycle from North Africa campaign.  All the weapons you see in the picture fit into and on that motorcycle and side car gunner. The WWII Red Cross was represented by Deutsches Rotes Kreuz (German Red Cross). We also learned that unlike the Allies, the German Army allowed women in non-combat positions such as signal corps, transportation, etc.

Now the Russians … well Patti’s smile says it all. History is a party with the comrades in the Russian tent.  

History is a party with the comrades in the Russian tent.  

До свидания!   (dah svee-dah-nee-yah)  

by Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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My Lung Cancer Odyssey @ http://lung-cancer-survivor.blogspot.com/     

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autumn equinox 5K push and roll

Autumn has always been greeted like an old friend in our story. Living with Multiple Sclerosis is challenging enough without nature rudely complicating each day with summer heat and humidity. Autumn has always meant the return to enjoying outdoors with MS friendly temperatures of Fall and Winter.

This year the Fall Equinox was somewhat special for me. I first learned of a “9 mm vague nodular density in left upper lobe” on the past Winter Equinox. It has been 9 months since my lung cancer timeline began.

Sooo we created our own 'autumn equinox 5K push and roll' to celebrate the first day of Fall. With MS perfect 72˚F (22˚C) temperatures and accompanied by breezes off the River, I pushed and Patti rolled around City Island, across the Susquehanna River, up and down River Front Park, and back across the river to our wheelchair accessible van on the Island.

Maybe it was the workout, maybe it was just the day … but we both agreed the fresh squeezed lemonade from a vendor on City Island was the best we ever had.

For what it’s worth this was the exact same route I walked for a Lung Cancer 5 K a month ago and it only took me 50% longer to complete pushing Patti.

“Autumn, the year's last, loveliest smile.”

William Cullen Bryant

by Patrick Leer

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caregiving is hazardous to your health

Recently I have watched the grieving for the death of another long term caregiver as told through posts and comments on the Well Spouse Association Facebook Page.

The pain, the worry, the frustration, the fear and the anger of fellow long term caregivers shout out of my PC screen. Disagreements over why? What’s right? What’s wrong? Yet in the end … all march forward.

For thousands of years, Ecclesiastes has reminded us there is a time for everything and this is a time to remember that “30% of caregivers die before those they are caring for. Some studies show deaths higher”. Yes, years and decades of intense stress diminishes the immune system and multiplies chances of chronic illness, for example my own recent diagnosis of lung cancer after 22 years of long term spousal caregiving.

Caregivers have to ignore their own health or put symptoms on hold to accommodate the person they care for. Often we simply have no time left for our own health needs after hours ‘on hold’ or spent in waiting rooms as a caregiver/advocate.

Depression is reportedly abundant. If someone cannot see or imagine positive outcomes or solutions well they are less apt to care about their personal well being.

Certainly I am preaching to the choir in this blog … improving our own health habits will not make us immortal or even invincible.

At best we can extend the battle into overtime, fighting a fight that cannot be won. The person we care for will not “get better soon” nor will they “die soon”, we care in the real world not the Hallmark version.

My Dad was my Mom’s long term caregiver for over a decade. When he found himself ‘dying soon’ of pancreatic cancer he confessed to me he prayed to God to take her before him so she would not be left unattended.  

... How did that work out? He lived 4 months longer than her.

Long term caregiving is not for everyone. It’s driven, measured and rewarded internally not externally. 

We are unique soooo ... “Hey, let's be careful out there!”

Patrick Leer

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fading red capes

Dusting my dresser I lifted my ‘action figure’ and found myself reminiscing briefly over the past quarter century of Multiple Sclerosis spouse caregiving.  

Decades ago my co-workers gave me this action figure when I finally had to abandon juggling working full-time, spouse caregiving, and basically single parenting.

Multi-tasking before it was even an overused word meant leaving work early, racing home to pick up Patti from the bathroom floor, shower and dress her, clean up the smeared excrement and urine from the bathroom, spray the house, and open windows before the elementary school bus arrived with our daughter and her friends. … I had to simply ‘find a way’ to juggle all the lives I was responsible for  -- that’s what MS home caregiving was.

Later when the care facility era began I felt ‘defeated’ at first before finding renewal in the teamwork era. I committed myself to 3.5 outings per week on average, followed by preparing and transferring Patti from her wheelchair to bed by myself using the bear hug one person unassisted transfer. We never used a lift in homecare and in my mind remaining part of her bedtime routine half the nights of every week keeps the care facility an ‘era’ rather than an ‘end’.

Recently I guestimated I have pushed Patti’s wheelchair over 5,000 miles (8,000 kilometers) over the years. If I had to do the same with “lifting” I would guestimate a total of 25 tons (22,700 kg) of one person unassisted transfers over just one year in the care facility era. Each home care year was ‘exponentially’ more. When caring for a non-ambulatory person, caring is about lifting hundreds of tons over the decades. Whatever ... it's a lot more than a warranty on any commercial lift.

This year my lung cancer diagnosis and surgery has been my own personal kryptonite and it’s annoying me. My transferring Patti to bed myself has dropped 10% and I ‘feel’ those manual transfers in my muscles affected by lung cancer surgery …

Why can’t life be like a comic book where caregivers’ red capes never fade and instead it’s the disease that weakens?

Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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National TV Dinner Day

Who knew that September 10^th was National TV Dinner Day? In our story it was purely coincidental that this homage to American family fine dining would collide with expanding my experiments with caring and the culinary arts.

Two months ago I began my experiments with finger food to hopefully prolong Patti’s ability to self-feed.

Two months ago I accompanied the earliest experiments in self feeding with verbal cueing … now here I was preparing to experiment with introducing TV to eating.  

Whatever … with nothing more than monitoring, Patti safely and enjoyably self-fed herself the evening’s finger food bowl of fresh fruit, boneless buffalo wings, and cheddar cheese … while watching the Simpsons followed by the evening news.

Again I attribute much success to cutting everything into varying shapes and sizes along with the differences in touch to the textures of fruit, poultry, and cheese. Let’s face it licking one’s fingers after buffalo wings is something that gets your attention.

Distractions while eating for Patti with her Multiple Sclerosis related dysphagia can be dangerous to fatal. However what I have always found is that it is the kind of distraction. Large gatherings involving meals are audio and cognitive over- stimulation. For people with cognitive or dysphagia symptoms frankly it is more about trying to survive than ever enjoying a noisy busy dinner.

I am not saying TV is a substitute for anything.  What I am saying is that I was able to introduce a variable, a single ‘distraction’, into my experiments with finger food for self-feeding without a problem for Patti. … In fact she surprised me when she discussed some news stories during commercials. Perhaps engaged might be a better word than distraction?

In the care facility era I look for symptoms I especially can have a unique ‘hands on’ impact with. I can no longer do it all but I can do some of it now even better.

by Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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accessible parking lot paralympics

Oh, the stuff you will learn!

Looking out the windows of a wheelchair van!

Normally we just arrive, lower the ramp, roll out Patti in her wheelchair and off we go. However Labor Day morning while waiting for showers to break we observed what I can only describe as the accessible parking lot paralympics.

Even Patti with her visual impairment noticed and would ask what was that? Or there goes another one?

Over about thirty minutes, a handful or so of cars pulled in and parked with accessible parking placards. Out of each car popped at least one person who sprinted through the rain directly past our van and into an unnamed minor league baseball stadium.

Hmmm …

Sprinters certainly were not blind, nor were they unable to walk 200 ft, nor did they display any portable oxygen, nor require the use of a wheelchair or assistive device … or the more visible reasons for a PennDot accessible parking placard.

Leaving one of two conclusions …

For the skeptics - able bodied people would misuse someone's accessible parking placard for a parking pass on a rainy day.

For the optimists - a minor league ball park employs many people wearing sprinting prosthetics to work under their clothing.

by Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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accessible rain

Weather can amplify dependency especially if someone is like Patti, non-ambulatory and not only wheelchair dependent but dependent on others to push her and get her in an out of foul weather.

Erroneous weather forecasts have a completely different impact on people like us ‘living accessibly’ than on our umbrella toting totally able bodied fellow citizens.

When the down pouring waters from the remnants of Hurricane Issac met the Festival of Sparklingly Waters (Kipona) on City Island in the Susquehanna River it was a good time for ducks not so great for people.

Arriving early Labor Day morning we sat through several down pours waiting for the weather to beak listening to an audio book (weather forecast remained “cloudy” in spite of downpours).

You may notice the teepee through the windshield of the photo, Patti already in her water proof wheelchair lap blanket, a reflection of me taking the picture in the rear view mirror and the sheer boredom captured on Patti’s face.

While I was more than up for some Gene Kelly style dancing in the rain, I let Patti make the call. While we have the clothing to get waterproof the bigger question is will the outing be fun for her.

She opted to head for a nice dry noon matinee of the stop-motion animated comedy horror “ParaNorman”.  Let’s face it, pilgrim zombies have mobility challenges and face stigmas that made our morning seem easy. IMHO freakishly fun even for big kids like us.

Yeah weather and all that can be a pain in the butt for anybody’s plans but when a woman with severe multiple sclerosis is being pushed around in her wheelchair by a lung cancer survivor let’s face it, if the outing ends with laughter – it’s a good outing.

by Patrick Leer

BLOGS:

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